I've been able to vary my calories without too much drama in my head (when I go up to 1,200) and with other people (when I eat below 600.) I've been working out in my classes, which everyone seems to agree is good for me because it is social, and I've been only running 2-3 miles, which is a number that doesn't freak anyone out. I've been able to tell my wife that I'm losing weight, but only in bits. Like setting 'healthy' goals and then being surprised when I blow them away!
I haven't worn any of my smaller clothes and I have been covering my collar bones, seems to be working. Yesterday, however, she was holding my hand and I noticed her notice how tiny my wrist is getting. Then after making love she made the comment that was the first time in a long time she felt like she was holding bones. I tried to keep my thrill from being too evident, but I saw her roll her eyes at my excitement.
I feel like I really may have learned how to balance high days and good days. This is my plan, I stay under the number I list unless I list a range, then I aim for inside of it: 600, 800, 600, 500-800, 500-800, 1000, 1100-1200 and then start over. First off the weekend lines up with the ugly high numbers, but I find that by just understanding that's what must be done helps alleviate the stress an anger of those days. It also helps my look good when people are home with me in the day! I also feel like my higher days offsets the danger of my lower days medically speaking. Lets say that the average female dieter eats 1,200 calories a day (and everyone thinks that medically healthy) then she is eating 8,400 a week if I calculate my calories using the lowest numbers in my range days and the numbers of my set days then I can eat 5,100 calories a week, not that different and if I add it up using the highest numbers in the range days it's even closer at 5,800 calories. It's been a week and I am very happy with my plan.
~ may I die this way ~
