I am going to be sick.

Tonight, again, I am sick beyond sick. I thought binge eating was rapidly eating way too much. It's not, a binge can last all day and these pass few days have been binges. I really need to vomit and I wish I could. However, I am not bulimic. I am probably not even anorexic considering how fat I am. I am simply a fuck up, and I am gross and scared. So tomorrow I choose to starve away the fear. I will not eat my stress I will lose it. The end. Tomorrow I will not eat more Than I work out. I will stay under 400 and I will be happy.